Stop lying..

More than a blog this should have been an entry in my personal diary but sadly I don't have one, so here it goes. Once in while after a span of few months I like to retrospect a little about my career path
(I am sure everyone does that). And this usually initiates a phase of few days which I call The Thinking Phase which sometimes is very productive but other times not so much.
I have been working for more than two years now, and I continuously keep motivating myself to do better and to do bigger things, things that matter to me and to people around me and it's a good feeling to have. It gives a flavor of happiness that I am not just working and living my life but I am also trying to shift it to a better direction. But today when I looked back and tried to figure out where I am going and what next big thing I can do, I found myself to be little lost(well, little more lost than usual). Before I could start my ever trusted routine of figure out a new plan and fill me with unending motivation I stopped for a while, and went one level deeper into it. Each time I tell myself about how clearly I can see myself walking on the right path in my life and my career and I create within myself this undeniable     belief that I know what I have to do. But I never asked myself one question and that is what did I do wrong that my previous master plan didn't work? Hmm...well I don't think I did anything wrong or at least I tried not doing anything wrong. Throughout the month I maintained the correct schedule, worked hard to finish off things on time and also made sure that I don't loose focus. But, in the process of doing the things right I never spent time on working towards moving to the next milestone, never took an extra step to change the direction a little, I just kept going. And I realized that I have been doing(or rather not doing) this thing from a long time, I guess since started working. Every time I felt like that I need to change something I just told myself what I need to do and may be followed it for a while but never took any major step. I felt like I have been lying to myself by telling all the faultless approaches that I can take cause I hardly worked on them.
Now it gives me a better idea about what to do when I run into such phase again. Never to tell myself that I know what I have to do if I am not gonna put all the efforts to do it. It does give one the happiness   in understanding the plan and believing in it but if you don't work on it then it's just a lie..