What's holding you back?

There's nothing in this world that I can not achieve, I can become whatever I want to, do whatever I want to, and If I decided to do so there's nothing that can stop me. These are some of the words that I used to say almost everyday to myself, not because I needed them but because I believed them or I thought so.

    Let me start with my little experience at college. After enjoying the first year in every possible way when I got into the second year a thought had occupied all of my mind that "If you really wanna make your mark, then this is the time to start". I wanted to do things, wanted to achieve something, wanted to become someone great. So I started to explore the world of technology. Determined to go beyond the measures, become powerful at any cost and willing to put any amount of hard-work, I began by starting to learn new stuff. Downloaded all kind of tutorials, and watched them. I just wanted to get started.

    The year passed, and so did my determination. It's not that now I don't want to become great but the feelings have changed. Then one day while I was listening to a symphony(Schindler's list theme, to be exact) I realized that my dreams are still hanging on there where I left them. I tried to recall what happened over the last year, why didn't I do what I wanted to do, what is it that held me back? After banging my head for few days it occurred to me that it's me. I am the one who is between me and my dreams. The theory was simple. whenever we try to do something good we feel motivated and then we get this satisfying feeling that we are trying our best cauz we have motivated ourself enough to walk on the right track. And in fact, it's absolutely correct. But there's one thing that we often miss out and that is the reason for de-motivation. Whenever we do not feel like what we are supposed to do we never try to take the blame ourselves instead we blame it on the outside world.

         Since these thoughts started occupying my mind, I made it a habit to think about all the things that's stopping me from doing what I really want to do. The more I thought the more I got focused. But the thinking is no good if it's not getting converted into actions, and that's the toughest part. Convincing yourself is easy, motivating yourself is easier but making yourself to believe is terribly difficult. And if you don't believe then motivation fades away.